2009

At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
That's when they put me in line.

It was cold,
It was January season
Sales made the people go mad.
I was sad
I hadn’t been agiven
Open arms to no-one I found.

And that’s how, the year began
So bad it was for me

Days went faster
I turned 18
The vampires came out
The vampires, ate me.

The boys that flew by
From eastern seas
Skin the colour brown
And hearts of black

Sex sex sex
That’s what 18’s about right?
Drinking day to night
Sleeping habits bite.

It makes you crazy
If you think about it too much
It makes you crazy
If you stop and think
Just for a moment.

At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
At the start of 09 I tried to end mine
That's when they put me in line.

Summer came
I went to Wales
Met a boy
Who broke my head
Shot me once
And shot me twice
I’ll be damned if
I let it thrice

He broke my heart
He broke my head
I came inside him
On his bed
I entered him
I made him mine
But he broke my heart
And that was my 09

Back again

I haven't posted in a few months because I've been too busy at University. University really doesn't allow for an excessive social life beyond boozy nights out. I'm back in Leicester. I've been here for 2days and I already want to go into the horizon. I really want to get medically trashed. Knock myself out. Inject loads of shit into me and snort crap and take pills and smoke weed and just distort life so it's shiny and new and sexy all over again.
I'm sort of a mess atm. It was this time last year I tried to top myself. And now Brittany Murphy's gone and died. It's all too sad. I do love Christmas though. My mind works as a paradox. Christmas is the best time, so I feel the worst. Does that make any sense? I am much too complicated, yet sort of obvious.