Have I really only got one day left of being 18?

I think from now on I'll just lie back and let the beats wash over me like lines and water.

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A year ago six years ago
I was a boy
six years ago
then I was fucked
then I was fucked
I came and came
and I have fucked
Sex broke my back
It broke my heart
I feel like
I'm at the start
I walked with her
I walked in lines
With the dog at my side
and my head in 12 fines
I held her hand
I kissed her lips
I placed my hands
around his hips
I hit his dick
He hit my head
I kissed her face
Inside her bed
I told her love
I told him love
I hated God
I hated love
I grew through years
through one or six
But now all I do
Is think of fat dicks