okay

breathe in
breathe out
the smoke around my mouth
out and out it goes
in my skin
through my lips
absorb into my cotton shirt
i breathe in smoke
so that it hurts
the cigarette between my lips
the skin and fat lie on my hips
i hold them close
to keep the warmth
as i walk around
in circles and
circles
and lines
that are fine
i stare with my eyes
i cannot cry
i am immune
i smoke through my veins
and i point fun at you
i blow at the air
i blow at the earth
i blow into the face
of the planet that gave you birth

a mosquito flew by
and tried to suck my blood
but i squashed it flat
before it even could
i clapped it between
my fat handed palms
i made a noise
and i caused it some harm
i killed it quickly
because thats what i do
i killed our love
because i always hated you

i though it was fair
i knew it was right
the love was never there
there was nothing to light
the fire i doused
with my tears on your sheets
i never knew love
and that brought defeat

to waste ones time
is a crime in itself
to waste ones compassion
is to waste ones good health
i put you in a coma
i kept it for days
to hurt someone is hard
but for you to obey

was impossible,
because you're a feat unto yourself.